Sudden thoughts.

Everything turned down by you all the time. I get my hopes up and see them fall all the time. Expectations into disappointments. I don't feel confident about anything anymore. Getting sick of waiting when i'm eager to getting answers from you. Always lost interest to chat when i'm in the mood to chat. Sick of i'm always the one who make the first move. Am i a normal friend to you? I don't know. I'm getting tired and deflated.. Keep getting these feelings recently. What am i doing with myself, i'm so fucked and i don't even know how to fix it. Maybe i disappoint you too, i'm sorry boo. I keep telling myself that i should've handled it better. Maybe everything will be alright after today.

Something that i learnt today, do not have expectation so that you won't be disappointed.